The scalding “ou know what you took from me / It makes me sick to think about that night” is not only exposing but borderline damning, a powerful display of vulnerability and a reproach of his mistreatment of her.ĭe Souza initiates the final verse with the humorous “I’d like to think you got a good heart / And your dad was just an asshole growing up / But I don’t see you trying that hard to be better than he is” and ends it with the longing “hen will it ever get any bеtter? / When’s it gonna get any bеtter?” Though she tries to give him the benefit of the doubt, he seemingly proves himself to be just as bad as his father is, with the final lyrics then being interpreted as either a questioning of if this “LA model fuckboy” will ever grow up or a more philosophical questioning of if her love life will ever improve. Through her lyrics, “o past the photograph and take a right … / Thank you for trying to be polite / But, babe, I think we’re already past that,” De Souza demonstrates how she doesn’t allow any positive prior experiences or notions to bias her current evaluation of him. I wrote this song when I finally realized that I could choose not to allow harmful behavior into my life and that there is a deep, deep importance in protecting the body and spirit.” she said. I was stuck in some delusion that I could help abusive people through their trauma and teach them to love me in the way I deserved. “Leading up to that experience, I had a history of putting myself in toxic situations and pining for validation from people who treated me poorly. Described in a statement as a song “about a brief toxic experience had with a manipulative and abusive LA model fuckboy,” the song is intrinsically antagonistic, yet finds space for humor in its delivery. The next track, indie rock anthem “You Can Be Mean,” rings more familiarly for fans of De Souza’s prior work. Reflecting De Souza’s newfound maturity and perspective on death, she mourns a lost friend or lover rather than spiting them, leaving emotional space for them to try again in another life and looking forward toward a new page in the one in which she currently exists.
The tension created by this bass is resolved with the last lyric “hen I come home / I will begin again” as both the vocals and instrumental stop.
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Knowing that you’re going to die allows you to infuse your life with intention and purpose and meaning and love.”ĭe Souza delves into these themes as early as the first track of the album, “Time Back.” Beginning with the bare pairing of simple, yet melodic, rhythm synth play and her filtered vocals, the song starts off evocative of Charli XCX’s self-titled album “Charli.”Īfter singing “t feels like I’m losing my best friend / But we’re gonna love again / On the other side,” a distorted synth lead carries the song into the chorus - a transition characterized, maybe exemplified, by De Souza’s singing of a heavily effected and delayed “yuh.” The instrumental is then catalyzed into an explosive reveal of its full instrumental potential, with the original pair of the rhythm synth and her singing joined not only by the synth lead but also a drum machine and bass.įollowing the chorus, the song enters an instrumental breakdown where De Souza’s lead vocals are supported only by the ambient noise of kids playing - a sound evocative of her first album, “I Love My Mom” - and her background vocals, which are mixed in a way that makes them sound like lead guitars.Įntering the outro, the instrumental deteriorates into an abyss filled only, yet entirely, by droning bass. Then at some point, I switched over and … suddenly started to feel like death is kind of this beautiful gift. “I think for a while I felt like death was a reason to feel like life didn’t matter, and it made it hard for me to infuse my life with meaning. “I would say that death is the biggest inspiration for maybe all things in my life,” she says in the post. The album, her first since the departure of original bandmates Jake Lendermann and Owen Stone, was largely self-produced and, per usual, self-written.ĭescribed in an Instagram collab post with Pitchfork as “death and a rebirth… deep, dark nights alone and having to process things that are hard to process, but coming out on the other side,” the album relumes the theme of death but expands upon her prior notions of it. Indigo De Souza released her third studio album “All of This Will End” on April 28.
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